The Bump

This can't be real life. We've waited for this moment for such an incredibly long time...so long that I was almost sure that I would never experience what most normal creatures of Earth can. Earlier this year, I wrote a post about Faith and it gives me chills to go back and read it. There are reasons that our lives are put into holding patterns at one time or another. God knows the purposes for His delays. If we remain faithful, He will reward us with something MUCH bigger and MUCH greater.

That, my friends, is where we are at. If we wouldn't have been through 6+ years of infertility hell, blocked tubes, endometriosis, epileptic sperm, two surgeries, seven failed IUIs, two failed IVFs, a miscarriage, countless fights, millions of tears, and a mountain of debt...we wouldn't be where we are today. We are being doubly blessed with two babies. Two.

I continue to pray every day for all of my real life and blog friends who continue to struggle. I still feel the sting whenever someone announces their pregnancy...that will never, ever go away. I'm still having a hard time believing that this is real...I think that I have brainwashed myself into thinking that I'm not good enough to experience motherhood. I feel like someone has been holding my head underwater for the past six years and I'm pretty sure that it has done quite a bit of psychological damage. We have spent over HALF of our marriage fighting this evil, and grieving every single month that passes without a child. If we have made it through this, then I'm pretty sure that we can make it through anything! I hope that our story serves as an inspiration to others to NEVER GIVE UP.

That is what I call a plan much bigger than we could ever imagine.

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! 

Isaiah 43: 18-19 

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