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God answers prayers one of three ways: 

      1. He says yes and gives you what you want. 

      2. He says no and gives you something better. 

      3. He says wait and gives you the best.

I think that after 6+ years, He gave us number 3:)

Please please please if you know us in real life, keep this to yourself. We are scared about what happened last time (no heartbeat), so until we are comfortable in knowing that this is real and viable, we do not plan on making an announcement anytime soon. Please do not facebook us or ask us about it in public. We are still very early right now. Thank you so much for understanding:)

I had another vivid dream Friday night that I was peeing on sticks and they were all positive. When I woke up, I was so anxious about it that I just went ahead and did it. I didn't want to say anything yesterday because I wanted to make sure today before I mentioned it on my blog! 

Last night, I dreamt that we were getting an ultrasound and it was twins...until my doctor said that one of them didn't have a brain and the other looked like a baby chick. God help me.

A couple of people have mentioned concern about having the trigger shot in my system and to be careful about false positives. I forgot to mention that I did not have to take the trigger shot this time because we had to use donor eggs. So, our donor had to do all of the dirty work. 

We are excited, but very nervous...which is understandable. "Cautiously optimistic" as we usually say in Infertility Land. I don't think we will breathe until we see a heartbeat and make it out of the first trimester. Actually, I don't think there will ever be a time where we stop worrying. All we know is that this is 100% out of our hands and God has control of the reins.

Our first Beta isn't until Wednesday, so that is yet another hurdle we will have to overcome. If we see the numbers high and doubling, then that will give us a better idea of if this is a viable pregnancy. Our first ultrasound to see a heartbeat would be around 6 weeks, which would be towards the end of July. Eeeek.

Thank you all SO MUCH for your prayers and support...please keep them coming! I can't believe this is happening...we may FINALLY become parents! And my boobs may FINALLY be bigger than my sister's!