Sunday, January 17, 2010

One Last Punch in the Ovaries...

Back when we were beginning IVF #2, I came across a website by the name of Fertility Socks. It is run by a sweet girl named Emily who mails out fun socks so that us gals can be stylin' while we spend a majority of our time up in the stirrups. So, naturally, I signed up to receive a pair.

Fast forward to now...I had already forgotten that I ordered them when I received a plastic bag from the postal service with an empty envelope inside. Someone stole my Fertility Socks! Geez, how low can ya go? At least the post office left me a friendly apology note. Because, you know, they care and all.

Oh, the irony of it all:) Maybe this is the sign that I've been looking for. No socks = Stop treatments??? If we don't do the 3rd and final IVF in our shared risk package, will we regret it later on down the road? Will we say "what if"? Will we be at peace with that decision?

We've been struggling with the question of what to do next...and maybe God is putting the answer right in front of our face. We've had a lot of weird signs over the last couple of weeks that leads us to believe He is dropping subtle answers in our laps. I will have more details later. One thing we do know is that we don't want to rush into making any decisions right now while we are still grieving our loss.

I will say that we are beginning to have more hope.

To the person who is wearing my Fertility Socks...maybe you helped us to find an answer to our nagging questions. Maybe you did us a favor. I just pray that your feet look pretty and you have better luck in those stirrups than we did.

Click here to find out more information on how you can donate cute socks to help Fertility Socks with their fun mission!

10 comments:

J said...

WTF? Who steals fertility socks? Stealing from an infertile is like stealing from a baby, it is just wrong! I hope that person enjoys your socks! I can't wait to hear about your signs.

Whatever you do, I'm here for you! I have your back through thick and thin and I keep praying that God guides you guys to make the best decision for your family!

You will always be my little redneck and I'm your whino and WE WILL BE MOMS!!!

jenicini said...

Wow. They stole your fertility socks. Maybe the package opened and the socks just fell out? I know, I'm reaching here. I received my socks from Em (so sweet) after my second cycle failed and miserably looked at the cute little frog faces and then stuck them in a drawer I never use. Now, I'm trying to will myself to pull them back out....:) Hugs to you. And I will send you some socks girl!!!!

Amanda said...

i can not believe that!! that is seriously insane! i really hope the socks do not help and they feel much guilt for it.

i'm praying for you guys! hope you're able to find peace on which decision to choose.

Kim said...

Gosh I would love to know what happened to your fertilty socks!!! I am so sorry - I believe in signs too...so if you had others, perhaps this helps confirm. However I will say my initial thought was you are not going to need them because you get pregnant on your own, but what do I know :)

Alice said...

That is unbelievable! What a weird turn of events. I'll keep an eye out for them in the bay area! :)

Regardless, I'm glad that a some hope as come back to your lives and wish you strength in making your decision as to what to do next. To say it's not easy is an understatement.

KJS said...

Karma's a B for that person...I ALWAYS think that when someone does something to me that I think is just ridiculous. I mean, stealing socks?!?!?!?!!? WHat the heck? I never received a birthday card from my Mom one time because it had a "happy birthday" stamp on it...you know someone thought there was money in it...well there wasn't and thank goodness! Some people are just dirtbags!

I will pray for guidance in your big decision.

I think of yall all the time!!!

Shanny said...

That is absolutely ridiculous! Stealing socks, really? Wow.
On another note, I truly hope you guys take your time deciding what's best for you and that you have no regrets years later. Big hugs.

Melissa G said...

DUDE, there is a special place in hell for someone who steals fertility socks, WTF?!

Anyway, I think it's great that you aren't rushing in to any decisions about your next plan of action. I'm not sure if it is something you would be interested in, or if its even something that is available to you. But our clinic keeps a licensed counselor on staff, who was very helpful to us when we were trying to figure out our next step. If they don't have anyone on staff they can probably at least recommend someone. I think talking to someone on the outside might help you both to process some of your grief as well as help you find peace in whatever your next step may be.

Hope that didn't sound like assvice, it was just very helpful for Brian and I, and I wish someone had recommended it sooner.

Hugs.

A said...

That stinks about the socks!! Geez. Will be looking forward to hearing what God might be leading you towards!!

Shelly Galvin (Attain Fertility) said...

Oh Jessica! How about I knit you a pair of your very own? Name the color, lady. (And try an alternate delivery method like UPS.)

We'll have you stylin'!