Thursday, June 25, 2009

We are Andy and Jessica...

So...I signed up for this blog over 2 months ago, and I'm still staring at a blank page! Sure have had fun decorating it though:) I've been told by many people over the past several years that I need to keep a journal about recent issues that we've dealt with, a form of therapy if you will. Under careful consideration, I have come to the realization that it is probably a good idea. So here we go...


My name is Jessica, and I'm an alcoholic. No, I'm just kidding:) Let's try this again...


My name is Jessica, and I'm married to a wonderful man named Andy. We have been together for 11 years and married for 8 years now! Wow! Crazy how time flies. We married with the same goals as most people have:


1. Have fun on the honeymoon.

2. Have fun after the honeymoon.

3. Get the education and careers in line.

4. Get comfortable in the careers.

5. Save money.

6. Buy a car or two.

7. Buy a house.

8. Have fun in the house.

9. Save more money.

10. Have fun with the money and start saving again.

11. Attend as many Gamecock and Auburn football games as possible.
12. Make a baby or two. Or three.
13. Raise the baby(ies).
14. Save for retirement.
15. Spend the retirement investments and start saving again.
16. Get the baby(ies) educated and married off.

17. Retire with whatever money we have left.

18. Play with grandchildren.

19. Get put in the nursing home, courtesy of the baby(ies).

20. Let the baby(ies) finish off the retirement savings.


I would say we've done pretty good with goals one through eleven. We're stuck on twelve, and have been for a little over 4 years now. I guess it goes to show that no matter how much you plan your life out, God has his own plans in mind.

Please don't get me wrong. I'm not writing this blog to make people feel sorry for us. I'm not trying to throw a pity party. The way I look at it, everyone has their own journey and challenges in life, and everyone's challenges are equally important. Life is all about each of us sharing our unique experiences...and about supporting each other through the struggles that we all face. I'm not sure if anyone other than myself is going to keep up with this blog, but I wanted a way to better verbalize my feelings and frustrations throughout this journey. Who knows, maybe I can be an inspiration and help someone else who is going through the same thing!

This blog is probably going to be very difficult, as I tend to bottle EVERYTHING up inside. Many friends and family members have asked me questions throughout our treatments, and I have a hard time answering them without getting extremely frustrated and emotional. It's hard for a "fertile" person to understand how it impacts our life. The same goes with anyone trying to comprehend something they've never been through. Think about it...you may try to sympathize with someone diagnosed with a certain disease, but what if it was you who was diagnosed? How scared would you be? How would it change your life? How would it impact your quality of life and finances? Wouldn't you want to confide in your family and friends and have them support you along the way? I feel that this is a good way for me to keep our family and friends updated on our progress, and hopefully help them to understand what runs through my mind on what seems like a constant basis now.


I am not sure if Andy will actually add posts on here, but he has given me permission to transcribe his daily thoughts. He says, "What's up." Maybe I can get him to open up a little more later:)


So, cheers. Here's to a happy and healthy journey of achieving goal #12 with the help of fertility treatments. Feel free to ask me any questions and leave comments...I will be injecting myself with many hormones, but I can't bite your head off through the internet:)

We are Andy and Jessica...and we want to make test tube babies.

2 comments:

Jess said...

I read this post and the one above it. Your TTC history is a long one...mine is too! :( I hope you can push past #12 and move on with your list.

My friend told me two days ago that if I stopped trying to have a baby, we would get pregnant. I just laughed in her face and then got pissed off because she was so WRONG!

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Jessica said...

Thanks so much! Gosh, we both have been trying forever. I'm so sorry about your losses and I hope that you will be able to have a baby soon.

Yeah, doesn't that grate your nerves when people say that?! I get that all of the time, and I don't want to break out the whole story about all of the medical issues that keep us from getting preggo. I just try to remind myself that they probably don't know what else to say. However, I have found out who my true friends and supporters are throughout this whole thing...some people are extremely insensitive when you need them the most.