You're Getting on my Last Hormone

Stimulation Day 10

I'm Aunt Jessica for the second time this year! My sister had her baby girl at 5:44 p.m. today. She weighs 8 lbs 1 oz and is 21 inches long. This is the first grandchild on my side of the family. My sister and her hubby live a few hours away so I haven't met her yet, but she is absolutely perfect in the pics!

My estrogen is now 1777 (from 1000 two days ago) and lining is 11.8 mm. I still have about 13 follicles and they are all growing nicely. A little more than half are now mature, but they want me to take another day of Follistim in hopes that the others will catch up and be mature by retrieval. It looks as if I will have my HCG trigger shot tomorrow night if everything looks okay at my appointment tomorrow morning. This means we will head to Charleston on Friday for preop and our last ultrasound/labs and my retrieval will be early Saturday morning. The transfer will take place on Tuesday (Day 3) or Thursday (Day 5). Yes, Thanksgiving Day.

I'm trying to stay in a good mood and not complain, but I'm beginning to get really irritated this time around. I hate how there isn't a set schedule with this. I never know when I'm going to have to go to an appointment until the last minute. It's torture asking off work every other day when I'm usually required to give a 2 month notice for time off. I'm sure that they understand, but it's still very uncomfortable. I always feel that I have to justify why I'm needing off...all because I want what is supposed to be the most natural part of human life. Unfortunately, I can't get pregnant the old fashioned way and it makes me feel like an outcast. Unfortunately most people who can easily have children do not understand why we would willingly put ourselves through this, why we don't "just adopt" or consider other options. Unfortunately, I can't quit my job because my original plan of being a stay at home mom is shot...considering all of our savings is beyond dunzo. I know that I have become extremely open about this entire process, partly because I couldn't hide it if I tried. I just hate that I have to bring my problems to work instead of leaving them at home. It has consumed my entire life.

I'm sorry, I've just had a few things said to me recently that have rubbed me the wrong way and it's hard to keep a smile on my face and act like it doesn't bother me. All I have to say is, I'm going to pick my battles and I have found out who my true friends are throughout this journey. I appreciate each and every one of you and I'm glad that I can get away from those who just don't understand and look here for support each day. I have been horrible at commenting back because I've been so busy lately and I'm sorry. I promise I will catch up while on bed rest this next week!